how is this humane?
If I were a pet and my emotional pain were physical, no one would have questioned putting me out of my misery years ago. Why am I being punished for my illness and trauma?
Reblog if you’d like 1 message from a curious anon.
There’s no way to say this without sounding like an arrogant twat, but here goes…
I’ve decided I must be some supernatural black-hole-like phenomena of loveable-ness because no matter what I do or say when I meet people and regardless of how disconcertingly awkward I am, people are more likely to decide I’m worth caring about than not. This serves to completely thwart my never-ending desire for every person on earth to disregard my existence entirely, so I can escape the shitful life I’m suffering without hurting all the fools who are sheltered enough to believe there is anything worthwhile about me having been alive, EVER.
I didn’t ask to be born , but for some reason basically everyone I meet tells me my suffering doesn’t matter and I’m obligated to live. That’s fucking TORTURE - EVERY WAKING MINUTE - and everyone passes it off as “humane”, which is ABSOLUTE and UTTER BULLSHIT! It’s NOT SELFISH for me to kill myself! It’s SELFISH AS FUCK to persuade me to stay alive merely because YOU WOULD MOURN MY DEATH!
my worthless life
I’ve done little but watch Kamen Rider yesterday and today. I finished watching Kuuga this afternoon and immediately started Agito, and when Eric is willing we’re gradually working through Wizard, as well. I’ve forgotten all the earlier seasons that I watched before I went through ECT, so I’m rewatching them.
I forgot how fucking adorable Shouichi is!!! <3